bob bob bob the history man.

Signed up for a history class at the very last minute.
and it was the BEST DECISION OF MY LIFE.
my teacher BOB (as he told us to call him) is one of the best teachers I have ever had. and it was only the introduction to his class.
he is OLD, and when i say old i mean like arthritis old. haha he told us "I am reminded of my age every morning when i look in the mirror to shave"
first of all he is a gay man from pennsylvania, and the first thing he told us was that he was an egalitarian, and was one of the fighters for equality back during the civil rights age! oh my, i am pumped to hear stories.
he pushed back the 8:00 class to 8:30.
doesn't give a damn if you sleep in the class or come to class, it is your decision whether or not you want to learn, "i don't care, after all it is you all paying for me to fly to bangkok to see my boyfriend in december". hahaha oh lawd.
i think he also loves sex. alot. because everything is about, spending time with your significant other, or i won't mind if you come to class and fall asleep cause you worked a night shift or you were up all night with your significant other, and he smiled huge and winked.

HE LOVES HISTORY (psssst so do i)

wellll we got out 2 hours early. i would leave, BUT i have another classs in 2 hours haha BAH.

made eggs this morning like a chef, probs better then that rachael ray chick i keep hearing about. i flipped them, peppered them. OOOOEE.
OMG I HAVE A BLISTER ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT FOR WEARING SUCH FLAT SANDALS AND NOW I CAN BARELY WALK AND THE ONLY SHOES I CAN WEAR ARE MY CONVERSES. fuck.

it's hot as shit, like really? why.

i know its summer but over 100 degrees. that's just redonk. i can straighten my hair with that much heat.

i have started to read 1984, by george orwell. REALLY goood, ironically there is an extra credit paper in bob's class on animal farm.
I am looking into a study abroad, in france actually. international development sort of abroad study where i would get to live in an apartment right on the northern tip of france between london and paris, for the entire semester
or there is this one in belize where i actually do development work, i get hands on experience and get to help out there, plus get 12 credits.

BUT
this is before i go to school in canada that is. YEP that's right, you all are the first to hear I am transferring to a school in canada in fall 2009.
i mean all the really good schools here are so damn expensive and don't give scholarships. and as a canadian its like $$170 per credit hour for me. and this is like at Mcgill (where my popsicle went, and whenever i say i want to go there he busts out laughing, like obnoxious brash laughter) and it is like 1 of the top schools in the world. yuh yeah. like 12 i think? and its in montreal, which is sooo beautiful, but i am also looking at university of british columbia vancouver which has the best international relations program in canada. and is in vancouver which is the most beautiful city like ever. there is the city skyline in between the ocean and the mountains. yea. that beautiful. and university of toronto of course, (new york run by the swiss).
ahhhh sUH-weeet bliss
i'm totally about to watch the office while i am sitting in the library, right now.
oh god i just turned around and this man with a baby was staring and smiling reallly creepy.
he's soooo not from here.
oh gah i love the city.

PEACELoVe

Prentice Mulford.

"every thought of yours is a real thing-a force"

how to understand this quote...how to put this quote into more words... how to get the true meaning of this statement..
a force? like "may the force be with you"?? (i actually haven't seen star wars.)
force, like power?
or there is "i am not trying to force you to do this"
like make you, which is like power.. in a different sense.
force- (my definition, the twisted kalyah definition)
some sort of in-tangible thing that is significant.

so the quote is saying, every thought of mine is a real thing- it has some sort of intangible significance?
YES that kinda makes sense, well to me.

i just had this sort of epiphany..
because, you see, i was given the secret (a pretty cool looking book that i thought was gonna be like harry potter), and as i was breezing through the pages i stopped on this random one, actually it was only page 4, HAHhahaha, and i saw this quote, needless to say it stumped me. Usually i understand these things pretty quickly, but the more i casually thought about it no answer directly fell upon me. Naturally i had to extricate it, find an answer cause it would just bug me for centuries, and i would annoy everyperson who talked to me, asking what they thought till i came upon a suitable answer.

I think I have, and it is interesting.. simply, this mulford fellow figures every ridiculous thought i might have, like when i think about me falling over the banister on the catwalk in my house, a story up (out of absolute fear) is some sort of subconscious longing to be brought out. SOOO mully, i want to fall? or is my fear of fallling so profound that it is significant in my mind, and when i think about it, the "force" i recieve is one of dread and discomfort? my fear is being brought out, fear usually is intangible significance.. hmmmm, valid.

thought=emotion=force=action

the end.
( i think)

No, not the end, cause as i was just writing out that i was listening to a mix of mozart and zepplin, i suddenly thought, then where do those statements like, "oh it's just a frivolous thought" or "oh it's not important" or "i dont really know what I am thinking" "or oh it was just a stupid thought", come from?

buttttt. then on the flip side, there is that saying "there is no such thing as a stupid thought" which kind of coincides with monsieur mulfords' statement.
every thought is valuble because, you are valuable. you have one life and every choice you make, or everything you do is valuable because you are the only one doing that thing, ever in the fashion that you are doing. say you jog around the park, and there are hundreds of other people jogging, i doubt any of them are thinking the same thing as you, or feeling the same way. everything you think or do is valuable, is unique.
omg, that is SOOOO arguable. the dreaded topic of conformity vs. non conformity.
can't go into that today.
time for some 1984

peacelove.